Thank you for answering learningtoremember. I think there is a big connection between having experienced abuse and that we have choseen a profession that deals with helping other people.
Now, it is around one month that I came int this forum and wrote my story. In this time I exchanged a phone call and an email with my mother. It seems that she has began going to a therapist and she told me she wants to beg me for pardon.
It is a great step in all of this, I appreciate that move from her side, but in fact... I dont need that she begs me. Maybe it will be positive for me that she recognise her fault, we will see guys. I will tell you soon how it worked.