Thank you for responding so quickly smile

I now live in England and have not been back to SA since 2004. The parallels between our stories are uncanny sometimes...for instance , my father was British and my mother South African and the lack of emotion, hugs etc. made it impossible to tell them. I was also 'picked on' in the army for being 'English'. I disagreed with a lot I saw going on and have my suspicions that a lot of what happened was 'corrective rape'.

As with you, because I could not name my attackers (it was always in the dark while I was on guard duty) I knew no one would believe me. And I always felt that if I did say anything, I would go 'missing in action'.

I am still terrified of going public even to family and friends, such is the inbuilt terror of some one coming after me.

You are an inspiration in the work you do.
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"This is the story of how we begin to remember,
This is the powerful pulsing of love in the vein."

"...just below my skin I'm screaming..."