It has taken me a long time to finally realize that issues from the past continue to be a force to recon with.
Recently I have started looking out for myself and have visited a few websites which in turn lead me to a survivor himself & Therapist. In turn he directed me to this site and I'm hoping to open up and bring some walls down that I have had up for 40 years.
From the age of 8-13 I was sexually abused by neighbourhood "friends" and raped by my ex brother-in-law when I was 16. It was a very confusing time and for all of these years I have attempted to handle it myself by internalizing and justifying in my own mind .. never really knowing which side of the fence I should be landed on.
I really hope to meet and get to know a few people on this site who I can openly talk to about my issues .. and realize that I am not alone anymore.