Some of the memories you talk about here are so famailiar to me it is scary. I'm so sorry that Tim was such a sleezy creep - you didn't deserve what happened.
I can really understand the need to remember....to make it real....to deal with it....to try to move on. We have tried so long to pretend it didn't happen...to deny the past...to push it way down deep inside to a secret hiding place. But we all know that doesn't work. It only eats us up from the inside out.
I hope in your search for truth you find closure.
More than meets the eye!