...anyways not sure what else to put here so I guess thatīs it.
What you put is just right for you where you are. There are no rules to recovery. Do it your way. Read the posts. And when you're ready post some of your own experience and feelings. You will find no judgement or criticism. Good luck and ask for help anytime you need it.
"Suffering was the only thing that made me feel I was alive,
Thought thats just what it cost to survive in this world,
...now I haven't got time for the pain... " -Carly Simon now 67!