I want to survive. I am beginning my journey to recovery.
Welcome. You have accomplished your first goal. You SURVIVED! Now do what ever you have to to move forward in recovery. This website can be a big part of it, but its your recovery to pursue in your own way. Hang around, read posts, and when you're ready post something of your own. Good luck.
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."Pink Floyd