i also know i just can't handle any more rejection. and the only way i know of to not get rejected is to not put myself out there in the first place.
Vent all you need to. Thats why we're here. Just one comment. Do something nice for yourself. Something you'll enjoy. No one has to know. Just do it.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell