Drago I just keep paying attention and walking through doors God leads me to. Listening. You have to do whats best for you. This BSA mess will go on for years like with the Catholic Church. You'll tell your story when you are ready. It can be powerful. I feel it is what I must do for my own healing and my hope for helping the other boys/men in my community heal or start to heal. But I can only speak for myself. For me finding his name on the list came with a huge sense of responsibilty. Not for what he did to me, but for what I must do now.