Welcome to MS. You've taken some important steps in recovery already. There will be difficult times ahead, but don't turn back. Theres a life ahead of you as a whole healthy man that you deserve to have. Whatever happened, it wasn't your fault. Keep writing.
Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to screamJoe Cocker