Mark - sounds perfectly reasonable to me.

i guess the triggers must be in the situation or in your memories or emotions - i don't see any here.

feel free to let it all out...

A man talking sense to himself is no madder than a man talking nonsense to not himself.
Or just as mad.
So there you are.
Stark raving sane.
- Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz & Guildenstern are Dead