yeh - it's a lot to tackle all at once.
hold on until the "Sandy" moments subside a little.
then pick one piece of debris and try to identify it and decide what to do with it.
one step at a time.
and there is always someone here - either live or in their posts - that can help you get a handle on things.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho