At one time, I never cried. I steeled myself not to show any emotions. That turned into not feeling any emotion. That went on for years.

Then the memories started to return. I started to feel but not to cry. For a while I was stuck there. It was terrible lots of pressure no relief.

Then I started to cry. I felt the emotions and the tears would come at the appropriate time. They were wracking sobs that came from deep in my gut and shook my whole being to the core. There was a connection between the emotional and the physical symptoms.

Now, I cry for no reason or very little. Its like making up for lost time, like all those tears just have to come out whether there is a good reason for them or not. The slightest little thing can set me off. I cant find the off switch. There is seldom any sobbing or physical sign (except with an occasional memory or real event that prompts real emotion) just my eyes start flowing. Sometimes I dont even realize it until the drops are falling off my chin or I cant see clearly through brimming eyes. This happens multiple times a day and without warning. it's a nuisance - and embarrassing.

I know all the previous stages are somewhat common. Has anyone experienced the last one? How did it turn out? Any hope for an end to this?

We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9