I came here because there are things I want to do but just can't, things I want to feel but just can t feel. Im tired of having people around me and still feeling alone.
I spent some time as a kid living with other families. Mothers shouldn't leave their kids with other people. The first lady to have sex with me I don't know. The others where older cousins. The last tried to make child porn. I feel sorry for the other girl, she cried quite a bit. I was experienced by then and knew what was expected of me.
I was smart in school, tall and handsome on the outside, quite popular although I never spoke. I felt nothing on the inside. Now I'm just tired of being in my head alone all the time. I can't sit here with this junk by myself anymore. I want to clear it out. I want to learn. I want to be able to speak. I want to learn to trust. I want to lust for somebody I love. I want eventually feel like I'm worth something.
I look forward to sharing my story with everyone and hearing other people's stories and progress.
That's one strong little boy!