I am a new member too. Your English is great.

So far I have found one of the best ways to deal with abuse is to be open about it. It's hard sure, but it feels so much better to be open with a few people you trust, or in therapy etc. Even just writing about your experiences or feelings helps.

You are definitely not alone. We are all on a journey together, not one we want to be on, but we don't have a choice and it is not our fault.

Your blog is great. Keep it up.