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I too lost my brother to suicide, and in my case both of us were victims of CSA together. I was and still am in a pretty rough place with it. I felt guilty about it, I was his big brother, I was the one that was supposed to look out for him and protect him. I have missed him everyday in the six years since he ended his life. The biggest thing to help me has been to keep in mind that he is no longer in pain