You have a right to some pleasant memories too. Not every memory is something to fear. I just remembered as a pre-CSA kid, walking to town every week with my pocket full of change to buy the latest Superman comic book. They cost 10 cents then. I also loved, Batman, Flash, Green Lantern, Aquaman, and OMG WONDERWOMAN! My first crush. I would wait till I got home to my room to read it, then I would read it over and over. I remember being HAPPY! No one can take that from me.

Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to scream
Joe Cocker