Welcome Peiguy,
You'll find alot of stories here expressing feelings and experiences similar to your own. Keep posting and keep reading. You'll learn alot quickly. Healing is a painful process and none of us has done it perfectly, but were all in this together, so ask for help. We're always here.
Jude
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"Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry "
-Des'ree