Welcome Peiguy,

You'll find alot of stories here expressing feelings and experiences similar to your own. Keep posting and keep reading. You'll learn alot quickly. Healing is a painful process and none of us has done it perfectly, but were all in this together, so ask for help. We're always here.

Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to scream
Joe Cocker