Welcome Peiguy,

You'll find alot of stories here expressing feelings and experiences similar to your own. Keep posting and keep reading. You'll learn alot quickly. Healing is a painful process and none of us has done it perfectly, but were all in this together, so ask for help. We're always here.

Jude
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"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "
Joni Mitchell