Welcome Peiguy,

You'll find alot of stories here expressing feelings and experiences similar to your own. Keep posting and keep reading. You'll learn alot quickly. Healing is a painful process and none of us has done it perfectly, but were all in this together, so ask for help. We're always here.

I went back to the doctor
To get another shrink.
I sit and tell him about my weekend,
But he never betrays what he thinks.
Can you see the real me, doctor?.
The Who