Started EMDR with my therapist the other day. I think it will help me with some anger and rage issues that I still have. It is very exhausting tho. It puts your brain on overload. It is kinda weird the way it works. The therapist gave me a buzzer (pulsator) in each hand and a pair of headphones. They work together and when an impulse goes off in the hand the same side ear piece goes off. It makes your eyes (even tho they are closed) move back and forth. It keeps the emotional state down somehow. But she asks questions as you think about something and words just seem to pop into your mind. The start is like this. Think of something that made you feel unworthy. Then she turns the device on and periodically turns it off and asks for your thought. It eventually comes full circle and the bad thought or emotion is released and you feel better. We started small and it seemed to work. We started with a thought thy made me feel like I was a disappointment. My grandad told me one time after I left college baseball that " boy you sure could have been something of your knees were better ". Small I know but you have to know the magnitude of my grandad in the baseball world at that time in the state of Alabama. I knew he loved me and didn't mean to hurt my feelings but I always felt like I let him down somehow. Over something I had no control over. I am sure if anyone asked him that he would say he is proud of me as the man I am. But he doesn't know either thy his son, my uncle, moleste me for years and years. Anyway back to the therapist. First they establish a safe place for you. Mine was outdoors and hunting. I feel so calm and at peace there. So whenever my thoughts seem to get off course or to a dangerous place we can go to the safe place. So we started the session and she asked me to go to the felling of when my grandad said that, I started to et emotional and she cut the device on ad my emotions went away. Strange I know. But she wrote the words down that I said. One time my thoughts started going to , danger and rage and words like that so we went back to my safe place. But she reads the words back after we were done and you can see how at the end I went to thing like , peace , understanding and love. I felt as if I was released from thy disappointment. We will get more into my abuse later. I am kinda nervous but very excited about the EMDR.
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Ephesians 6:13

Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

Ephesians 5:25

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her