Bob thank you for your candid and honest answers. My husband is not as good at expressing himself or maybe he is scared. I fully realize that there are many demons he is fighting. I am fighting a couple myself. So many moving pieces and all the while we have a family and business to keep running. Not alot of time to slow down.

Esposa you are right and I know that.

I am in awe of the little boy that endured and survived the abuse. There are many things I love about my husband and I hope that he learns to love himself. I don't want to always wonder is he being faithful to himself and us. I think I can deal with the past but the future?