I site here scared looking at two angels
two beautiful angels only hours old
Perfect and can't get any more perfect
I shouldn't be scared but i am

Identical bundles of joy in my life
here for only a short while though
now comes my hardest part ever
how can i leave you and let you go?

It is for the best I keep telling myself
I know it is deep inside
how can i make myself believe this though
I love you so i give you's both this chance

Daddy doesn't know if I can do this
I can't do this and how can I
I see your gorgeous faces and wonder what i am doing
I have to do this what choice do i have i won't let any harm come to you

the most wonderful blue eyes with hints of green, gold, and purple
Eyes like your daddy and my two brothers and my love
Skin of olive tone the most amazing sun kissed gold
the Blackest of hair already that is jet jet black

10 fingers
10 toes
2 arms, legs, feet, ears and eyes
and one cute little nose

The smallest birthmark on each of you
the shape of a heart in your head
no hair covering it at all
pure love showing at all times there

I only have a few short while with you
hours maybe
days if i am lucky
a week maybe two the most though wishing mostly here and there

My princes surely you are so why am I scared to hold you
Scared to pick you up and feed and change you
Why leave them do it and not me
I love you i do but why can't i just hold you

Fear and Knowing that i am loosing you
Good reason or not I don't care
can't i be selfish once in my life
i just got you and now i have to leave you

Little princes in my heart and mind always
Know i always wanted and loved and love you still
Know my sacrifices i am making to save yous and give chance to you
Know that your older brother will protect you when daddy can't

My two princes came tonight
8 pm and 8:01 pm
6 lbs 6oz and 6 lbs 4oz
Both 20 inches long

I should be rejoicing and happy and excited
yet here i sit looking at you angels
Lonely, upset, angry and mad
not at you's definitely not
but at life itself for some there just isn't a choice given

I sit here with my gorgeous angels
wondering what next can come to life
as i take the chance to hold you each
i pray that no harm ever comes to either you that came to me
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I don't want to look back;I just want to start again;Somebody save me--- Pop Evil: Broken and Betrayed

I want justice I want you overthrown;I want courage I want to stand alone;I want your arrogance and I want your pain;I want your everything and I want you dead--- Rev Theory: Justice