i really respect you for telling your story with no excuses and for trying to work on the marriage. sounds like an amazing woman you lucked into. you are both survivors. congratulations and all the best wishes for the next however many years you've got left!
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho