Hi Gecko,

Welcome. This is a place for healing and you've shown alot of courage already in pursuing healing. Keep it up, and you'll find your way to daylight. We're all here to back you up.

"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "
Joni Mitchell