I liked what you said back a while, and when you described being tied up and raped I was a little saddened. I had a very different story from yours. I always thought that if I had been forced, tied up and made to do it rather than coerced and manipulatted into it I would not feel as bad about having done it. I guess you kinda shed some light on my points of veiw. I was not any more to blame for the CSA than you were. Allowing myself to shoulder the blame and not direct the fault at my brothers and at my family and the other predators let them get away with it and without punishment. Today I battle to make my life whole. I don't worry about them, I focus on me.