I am also a nurse and a male survivor of sexual abuse. You are very couragous to seek healing at the age of 21. Many of us held it in till middle age and it ruined our lives. You have your whole life ahead of you to live as a whole healthy man. Chicks dig that! (umm I guess guys do too). Run with it. It will be painful and hard, but worth it. Post when the going gets rough and you'll find out how many friends you have on MS>
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell