I am also a nurse and a male survivor of sexual abuse. You are very couragous to seek healing at the age of 21. Many of us held it in till middle age and it ruined our lives. You have your whole life ahead of you to live as a whole healthy man. Chicks dig that! (umm I guess guys do too). Run with it. It will be painful and hard, but worth it. Post when the going gets rough and you'll find out how many friends you have on MS>
"Suffering was the only thing that made me feel I was alive,
Thought thats just what it cost to survive in this world,
...now I haven't got time for the pain... " -Carly Simon now 67!