This is a community of men who have been kicked HARD in the balls. Posting publicly is a courageous first step toward recovery. You did it because you need to deal with the effects of the abuse in your life, and heal. Keep posting and keep listening. There's a life waiting for you as a whole healthy man and its within your power to get there.
"And it's run for the roses as fast as you can
Your fate is delivered, your moment's at hand
It's the chance of a lifetime, in a lifetime of chance
And it's high time you joined in the dance"-Dan Fogelberg