In hindsight, all the steps backwards I thought I was taking were absolutely necessary.
I *loved* what Sasuva just said ... "recovery was about 1 forward and 9 back allowing me to connect with the abused self AND BRING HIM FORWARD". Brilliant. Bloody brilliant.
Thanks for helping me make sense of my own recovery by sharing your questions with us.
It's a heroes journey, and you are the hero.
Loving Kindness Meditation will dramatically improve your spirits; give it a try for just 3 days: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sz7cpV7ERsM