Providence,

Your story sounds a lot like mine. You're not alone.

Like Gary said, keep posting. Until you get yourself into therapy, posting here is a great step in the right direction.

Are you a student or grad student in Prov, by any chance? If so, there might be some good resources for you to get started on seeing a therapist.

Send me a private message if you want to talk more.

Jim
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Recovery is possible. Hang in there, brothers.