quick follow-up:

last Sunday, for the 1st time in my life, i was able to sing the songs that address God as "Father" without flinching or having the word catch in my throat. smile

A man talking sense to himself is no madder than a man talking nonsense to not himself.
Or just as mad.
So there you are.
Stark raving sane.
- Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz & Guildenstern are Dead