Reading too much is definitely something everyone new here does. I did it myself. In time you'll learn to go slow and even find a place where you don't need to read everything, because honestly it's too much for any 1 person.

You'll find a few kindred hearts here that you can talk openly and freely with and they'll grow to be your core people.

Just take it one day at a time, and know that in the things your experiencing and such, you are normal.