It takes tremendous courage just to take the steps you've taken. And the fact that you are doing so at 25 is amazing to me. I kept my secret for 42 years and it destroyed my life. You have the opportunity to make a life as a whole healthy person. Run with it.
When I first started dealing with it the most helpful thing I heard was "It wasn't your fault". I had to hear it about 500 times before I really believed it. Believe it my friend. You're in good company.
"I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry, boys don't cry"The Cure