I know what you mean.
You have to remember that we are still human even though we have the power of God in us. It is still human nature to want others to respect us. (I'm equating needing our worth to be seen with respect - could be wrong) The bible says 'Husbands love your wives' because women 'need' love - it says wives respect your husbands' because men 'need' respect. That is how God made us!!! I wouldn't feel bad about wanting to feel respected.
I probably have depression sometimes. My wife has depression and the meds have helped a lot.
She often gets a headaches when she is depressed. It makes her really irritable and not much fun to be around. She knows it is happening but can't seem to change it.
Do you feel that your depression stems from CSA or is a separate issue?
More than meets the eye!