i had a blond teddy bear that i brought to our new "home" when mom married the step-dad. i have nev er seen another one quite like it. he threw it away. i remembered that when she rubbed the inside of the monkey's ears and said the boy used to do that. i did that too. WTF! here i am sitting in my office crying over a stuffed animal that i lost when i was 5 1/2.

We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9