i had a blond teddy bear that i brought to our new "home" when mom married the step-dad. i have nev er seen another one quite like it. he threw it away. i remembered that when she rubbed the inside of the monkey's ears and said the boy used to do that. i did that too. WTF! here i am sitting in my office crying over a stuffed animal that i lost when i was 5 1/2.

As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago