As I write this introduction I am fighting off this urge to leave. I'm not sure if I want to go down this road, but my gut is telling me I need to. Anyway, since this is an introduction - Hi, my name is Chris and I am a survivor. I think survivor is what I am supposed to call myself. I have kept a secret for more than 19 years that I have only recently thought seriously about revealing to people. Before I can talk about this to family and friends I MUST first figure out if I can talk about this with strangers. I think this is all I want to say at this moment.