1. I went back to middle school every day after/while being abused by other kids.
2. I told my wife about the CSA in my past.
3. I started to work with a therapist.
4. I admitted that I had problems – named them – and identified what had caused them.
5. I spoke at a school staff meeting to tell my story of being bullied - to persuade them to take it seriously at our school.
6. I started spilling everything here on the MS forums.
I guess it’s no surprise that everything is related to abuse. Everything else in my life that was challenging – moving alone across country at 21 to start a new life in a place where I knew no one, taking a job half-way around the world in a foreign country, living in the jungle for several weeks, sending my kids to another country for college – all pales in comparison. I am impressed every time I log on here by the courage of every survivor who keeps on going… for some, getting up in the morning is an act of bravery.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho