1. I went back to middle school every day after/while being abused by other kids.
2. I told my wife about the CSA in my past.
3. I started to work with a therapist.
4. I admitted that I had problems – named them – and identified what had caused them.
5. I spoke at a school staff meeting to tell my story of being bullied - to persuade them to take it seriously at our school.
6. I started spilling everything here on the MS forums.
I guess it’s no surprise that everything is related to abuse. Everything else in my life that was challenging – moving alone across country at 21 to start a new life in a place where I knew no one, taking a job half-way around the world in a foreign country, living in the jungle for several weeks, sending my kids to another country for college – all pales in comparison. I am impressed every time I log on here by the courage of every survivor who keeps on going… for some, getting up in the morning is an act of bravery.
There’s a special providence in the fall of a sparrow. If it be now, ’tis not to come. If it be not to come, it will be now. If it be not now, yet it will come—the readiness is all. - Hamlet, Act 5, sc 2