1. I went back to middle school every day after/while being abused by other kids.
2. I told my wife about the CSA in my past.
3. I started to work with a therapist.
4. I admitted that I had problems – named them – and identified what had caused them.
5. I spoke at a school staff meeting to tell my story of being bullied - to persuade them to take it seriously at our school.
6. I started spilling everything here on the MS forums.
I guess it’s no surprise that everything is related to abuse. Everything else in my life that was challenging – moving alone across country at 21 to start a new life in a place where I knew no one, taking a job half-way around the world in a foreign country, living in the jungle for several weeks, sending my kids to another country for college – all pales in comparison. I am impressed every time I log on here by the courage of every survivor who keeps on going… for some, getting up in the morning is an act of bravery.
We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9