I'm gay, and one of my abusers was a priest at a boarding school I attended throughout my high school years. It took me 35 years to get around to dealing with that abuse. I chose to litigate over that abuse and reached a settlement that I thought was fair and just. However, it too was an emotional roller coaster. From my vantage point, being on the emotional roller coaster is part of the process of recovery. So don't kick yourself too hard for choices you've made; and don't rule out any choices at present for fear of the roller coaster.
I'm glad you're reaching out and hope you can find a community of affirmation and support here at Male Survivor. The weekends of recovery have been a great resource for my recovery at present, and there's lots of connections to be made here in the online community.
Take care of yourself.