I wonder what it is like
   to wake up and know you had friends
People you could call just to say hello
   or “whatcha upto?”
      or even
               “got a minute to talk?”

they wouldn’t need to know
    that dark secret
         the one that scares people away
         or makes people think you’re crazy
         for not already being “over it”

no, they wouldn’t need to know
but …. you knew
   if the conversation ever went that way
you could tell them
            and it wouldn’t change anything
                      except maybe,
                      for a minute,
                               they might feel sad for you
but remain a friend.

I really do wonder
            just what that’s like…

can anyone out there tell me?
      anyone?
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the story
    https://1in6.org/men/bristlecone/mark-krueger/

Kirkridge - October 2008
Alta - September 2012
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