[quote=DavidMI]it's taken me the better part of 25 years to really come to terms with that and start dealing with it. quote]

Welcome David. It took me 42 years to work up the courage to deal with my abuse. You are in good company. let the healing begin.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "
Joni Mitchell