[quote=DavidMI]it's taken me the better part of 25 years to really come to terms with that and start dealing with it. quote]

Welcome David. It took me 42 years to work up the courage to deal with my abuse. You are in good company. let the healing begin.
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."
Pink Floyd