Thanks for responding,

I saw therapists many years ago but these things were never really discussed. I'm skeptical of therapists because many of them were bad. Were I live is very conservative and so are most of the therapists. I would be worried I would be harshly judged for asking those questions.

I would leave open the possibility of seeing a therapist again but I have had bad experiences. I have a lot of other things going on so I'm not sure if I could take that on now but I may at some point.