Bill 12 -

i'm no expert and can't diagnose - but what you describe are not inconsistent with abuse survivors. it could be caused by abuse or some sort - but not enough evidence to prove it was sexual abuse. could be emotional or physical...

have you seen a therapist? that might be a good idea - someone who is more knowlegable and can explore things with you in more depth.

and BTW - WELCOME to our safe place. hope you'll stick around and join in more if you feel so inclined. there are others here who have some of the same questions and uncertainty as you.

Lee
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago