Hey Mike --
Seems you and I are both on rollercoasters at the moment. What I'm finding useful, as long as I'm going to be obsessed about it, is to put that energy to good use. For me it's meant immersing myself in research, particularly on the law in the state as it stands.
End result, aside from being tired, is that I have a better handle on my options.
And, hell no, I didn't want to be as involved in this as I am either. I'd rather forget about it. Life seemed easier before. But there's just something inside me.
I'm with you, Mike.