Thanks everyone for your thoughts. I don't know that there is more in me to write yet. I know I am at a place where it all can move forward, I just don't know how yet. A T can help me figure that out when I get back to one, and help me put all the parts of myself together that still feel separated, like they are frozen in time. I won't give up and thanks again.
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Lao Tzu said: "When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be."