Of all the good lines in this poem, I think this one is the best:
"I am young and old at the same time. I still hurt because I cannot understand some things."
I think you could write two more poems with each of these sentences as a first line. There's a lot to explore here.
Keep it up.
"There is a Catskill eagle in some souls that can alike dive down into the blackest gorges, and soar out of them again and become invisible in the sunny spaces... even in his lowest swoop the mountain eagle is still higher than other birds upon the plain, even though they soar." -- from Moby-Dick