I too am gay and very happy in my survivor's life. It gets better every day.
thanks New Summer.
I want to add a couple of things.
I spent over 7 years of my life married to women to placate my religious family.
I spent the majority of my twenties hiding in the closet trying not to be gay. (something I could have avoided)
When I first got the guts to tell people, they told me I was too "fat" or too "old" to be gay. (nothing was further from the truth)
My own insecurity and inablitiy to see past my taught shame and internalized homophobia gave me several years of inabilaty to accept myself, or enjoy my sexuality.
TODAY, I am passionate about gay rights. I am a passionate gay man in a loving marriage. I am exciting, fun guy to be around. I have lots of friends and have a good life. I also do not speak to the family that taught me to hate myself for being gay.
Incest was a terrible violation, but the rejection of my sexual self, the exorcism from my family or origin based on my sexuality was the height of their betrayal. Taught when young to be a gay prostitute for my brother and friends was ok by them, but come out? Oh No....
Today I live in a different dynamic. Today I am gay and happy with it, if they don't accept me the way I am, then they can exit stage left, this play is not about them.
My Gay Life!
Edited by bodyguard8367 (07/29/12 01:13 PM)
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