And that is completely understandable to any of us. Things like that don't happen over night to any of us. It takes time for those kinds of things to settle in and allow us to be comfortable in our own skin so to speak. I know in my own sort of coming to terms with me being gay, there were times i was completely disgusted with myself and other people i thought were gay. But if your honest with yourself with what you want,you'll find you more and more comfortable with that part of you. Again, thats my 2 cents.
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