Jay - What does your heart tell you. If there were no barriers for you to overcome, what would you like to do? I'm a 50 year old guy who dealt with PTSD from ASA in military and also as a child.
I am still dealing with the PTSD, but my passion has been to be my own boss. It looks like it will happpen. I miss the Navy, excluding the abuse, it was the best experience of my life. I was a CT.
As far as your family goes, it's never too late, if you don't want it to be. May I suggest a book called the Love Dare?
Hang in there and anchors away! LOL.

Sincerely,
bill
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Forgiving does not always mean everything goes back to the way it was. There are still natural consequences for what was done.