Jay - What does your heart tell you. If there were no barriers for you to overcome, what would you like to do? I'm a 50 year old guy who dealt with PTSD from ASA in military and also as a child.
I am still dealing with the PTSD, but my passion has been to be my own boss. It looks like it will happpen. I miss the Navy, excluding the abuse, it was the best experience of my life. I was a CT.
As far as your family goes, it's never too late, if you don't want it to be. May I suggest a book called the Love Dare?
Hang in there and anchors away! LOL.
Forgiving does not always mean everything goes back to the way it was. There are still natural consequences for what was done.