Thank you peroperic... I am not being honest about my abuse...I can't even be honest to strangers anonymously...I don't know why, I never feel safe....I don't think I should post until I am ready to be more honest.

I think it is sufficient to say I was abused. I think that's as much as I can honestly tell the world right now...I wonder if I'll ever be able to really let it all out....maybe I leaped into all of this too quickly.