funny - i read this back when it was originally posted, but it didn't really mean much to me at the time. i guess i wasn't ready to hear it.

my T said something similar today. he went on to say that up till now i have been describing and defining where i have come from and where i am now. all of that has been a messy, painful, difficult process. But now i know where i am. And you have to know where you are before you can leave it.

i could remain stuck there in the past or here in the present - or have an illusion of progress but just keep covering the same ground like on a treadmill. or i can choose to push on.

i think i am ready for that next step. ready to move ahead. i don't know what is up there or how to move forward but am determined not to stay where i've been. talk about a leap of faith...

Lee
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago