well I am here to say we love you no matter what..and there might be some follow up tests, and a referral to a specialist. There are many meds to try and everyone will have different reactions and success with the different therapies. I am not a medical person, and being gay ...Even playing safe, there are lapses and I dread the tests...one just never knows..
In the past you seemed up and down with bi, girls, friends, closeness. I totally relate to that and it can mess with your mind..like is my workout buddy rubbing on me in some secret way>>.I dunno...I usually ignore those fleeting impulses...dating sucks for me anyway so once I accept that the bars suck...being sober and fit are awesome...I tend to meet guys that are similar and dynamic..it is not easy and maybe change your off duty time and try new stuff..art...whatever..
Ok happy holidays