"constantly I hear in my head that I don't deserve it cause I'm bad and dirty and they'll see right through me and be disgusted."
Thank you for posting this Thebo, it helps to hear others that feel the same way and that it's not just me.
I hope that your job prospects work out and that you are able to work and continue with school. It is awesome that you have your Art to help express yourself. I wish I had the talent to create something new.
Wishing you well Thebo,
Hope Springs 2011
I've learned that the shame we carry is our overwhelming burden. Amazingly, it does not weigh down others if we open up and share with them. Realizing that the shame is not ours to own makes all the difference in the world.