May this be the community you seek as you search for answers. I'm proud of you for addressing your CSA so quickly.
Many of us, myself included, suppressed it for years or decades with almost always disastrous, destructive & deleterious results.
My first recommendation is to find a therapist that can help you start to unravel the csa and begin healing from all of the emotional trauma that it caused you.
There are some good resources here on ms.org and so please take full advantage of them.
Again, sorry that you're here but glad that you found us.
My CSA story TRIGGERS!!!!The hottest place in Hell is reserved for those who remain neutral in times of great moral conflict. Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.